Weights~

     So as I am sitting here thinking and praying about our upcoming school year, I am realizing the enormity of the task I am beginning. I have always looked at motherhood and marriage differently than most I feel. As a younger person, I, like many females, looked forward to marriage, home ownership, and babies. I didnt think too much about it. But as they began to occur in my life, my views on them began to shift. 

     Let me explain. I read, alot. I read devotionals, and blogs, and missionary stories and obsure books many would find "boring" because I always find treasure and gems within these stories. The Lord has entrusted me with a husband. If I ponder that statement for a moment, I should feel the weight of it. He has allowed me the great responsibility to be a man's helpmate. I have the privilege to help Travis, pray for him, sharpen him, serve him, feed him, give him a place to rest, love him, listen to him, friend him, praise him, encourage him, and push him closer to our Lord. The weight of that is heavy, really heavy. I am really strong girl, I promise. I mean, my sister and I are pretty proud of how strong we Greenwell girls are. But the weight of that is immense. Because one day, I have to stand before a holy God and account for how I have helped him, and "wifed" if you will, him. This is why, even though at time, I really could throw him to the curb, :), my promise of til death parts us, will stand firm. I also now, have three littles who watch me. They see in my and Travis' relationship, a picture, be it not perfected mind you, of Christ and his love and relationship w/ the church. So not only do I have to account for my actions with my husband, but also how I have modeled this to the littles with whom God has entrusted me! Talk about heavy!

    This week as I have been reading, several devotionals have reminded me of the great privilege it is to help my husband, the amazing opportunity I have to mother these babies. More on that in another post :) But today, I can take refuge in the promises that my God has given me in his Word. He is a good God. He is a sure God. He is a steady God. The enormity of my tasks is nothing to His broad and strong shoulders. I am only to listen to His words, and obey them. He will carry the weight of the rest.